Day 14

Half way through the month. Alhamdulillah.

I've had to turn to sugarfree sweets a couple times.. actually i didnt HAVE to but i ordered them in advance when i started and they just got here and now im working and stressing and i've had some sugarfree yummies. i guess eventually i'll have to weed all the artifical sugar out of my life since i KNOW its killin my poor kidneys.

I'm discouraged about the whole weight thing. I feel like it takes my body FOREVER to start losing weight :( Usually I get discouraged before I get there.. or drastic.


blekh

Day Eight

Alhamdulillah I made it through the week. Last night I felt like eating something sweet but I think it was just cuz I was bored and wanted a pick-me-up. I've also been trying to avoid carbs cuz the doctor suggested I do. But my sis just brought back fresh buns from the bakery. I don't know how I can avoid them. uff. I love buns.

Day Three

going slowly again.. i had a dream last night that i ate a peice of cake just because it was infront of me. i told myself i wouldnt and then unconsiously i started eating it. and i got mad because it was gross cake. haha.. this is what i dream of.

i actually made it to the gym on saturday. im going to try to make it again.

i didnt have tea yesterday and i think today i'm going to pay for it.

Day One (i dunno what attempt)

okay so i went on a lil hiatus (hyatus? hi-ate-us) hehe but im back.. im gonna try again. *pokes tummy* im tired of this tummy!!

Day One (3rd Attempt)

so I got to day 4 and then went to a movie and had candy and a (yucky) cappacino chiller. i wish atleast it was a yummy cappiccino thing.. then atleast it'd feel worth it.

*sigh*

this isn't going so well.

Day Three

Oh I was so busy I didnt notice day two go by at all. I found a cereal we have that doesnt have sugar in it, some fiber thing. So I have that with a banana for breakfast and it's yummy. I havent touched those yummy cookies yet. I think theyre almost gone. I didn't check.

Doctor's appt today. fun fun *sigh*

Day One (2nd attempt)

No time to get snacks today. I'm thinkin a bag of those super yummy macintosh apples. I love snacking on those. Hopefully I'll get some time soon..

I was out by the candy section today and I found myself eyeing some candy so I got a little pkg of sugar-free licorice. I wanted to avoid artificial sweetner as much as I can because it keeps my craving for sweet things and also cuz it's bad for my kidneys (right?). But I thought it was the better choice at the time and theyre not that yummy so I think I'm good.

doh!

So I'll be back to day one tomorrow. I had a granola bar that's got a lot of sugar in it. I was so hungry and there was nothing else to snack on. hmm.. I'm going to have to get some healthy snacks before this happens again. *sigh* ah well. I concidered not even mentioning it but I figured that's cheating on my own rules and only cheating myself.

Tomorrow:
- buy healthy (yummy) snacks

any ideas?

Day Two

Sheeeesh there's sugar in EVERYTHING!! argh. torilla wraps? common.. you can't even taste the sugar in it.. why put it in? uff. and soup?! sheesh.

I'm stressing from work and therefore i want CANDY hehe uff. ah well.

Man, 30 days is gonna be long. Hopefully after I get it out of my system it will get easier and I wont crave it so much.

too soon for doubts?

My mom bought oatmeal raisin cookies.. like a few dozen of them. They're the yummy kind too. They called up to me as I got my grapefruit for breakfast. *sigh* This is going to be hard. Mom got my fav cereal too. Two boxes. It's not a 'bad' cereal but it's got sugar in it and I did find that it effected me like sugary cereal. So I'll have to avoid it as well. I'm thinking I'll give this link to my brother and a couple friends. I don't expect them to follow all my blogs but maybe the thought that they COULD if they wanted to will shame me into sticking to this.

The Beginning - Day One

So I've decided to TRY to go without sugar for 30 days. Why on earth would any candy-loving person, like myself, want to go sugar-free? Well..

Here's a list to remind myself why I'm doing this:
1. I find that I'm having a lot of trouble concentrating. This may not be entirely sugar's fault but it couldn't hurt my brain to be off sugar for a while.

2. I'm addicted to sugar.. and I don't like it. (other addictions, like tea, I am okay with.. for now)

3. I've gained a tonne of weight in the past two years so it'd be nice to be doing something about that.

4. I have diabetes in my family.. majorly.

5. sugar really sucks! check out the sugar and health section on it's wiki page.

6. I'm fat (thought I'd mention it again since that's a major one)

7. My sleep sucks and I'm always tired (I turn to sugar for energy but it ruins my sleep)

8. The crash after a sugar-high really sucks.. it's not a great anti-depressent.. heh.. *avoids eye contact*

9. I used to love how I felt when I was a health-nut and doing good for my body.

10. I need something to be proud of.

11. I get these strange tremblies where I feel like I'm shaking from the inside and I get really hot and I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't eat something. Mom thinks it's blood sugar related, sounds about right. So hopefully controlling my sugar intake will help that.

12. When I go on a sugar binge I break out in a rash across my chest. Maybe I'm allergic? or my body is just trying to tell me something.. like "hey lady, you're killing me"

Thirty days seems like a really long time, especially since I had a false start 3 days in a row, but I really want to make sure I break the addiction and it's out of my system. Plus I want to feel like I accomplished something major.

Rules:
- no refined sugar
- avoid sugar substitute as much as possible (getting off that is gonna be another challenge all together)
- fruit are okay (hey, I have to have SOME kind of yummy deterrent)
- if I have sugar I have to start from zero again (uff)

I'm hoping that by telling people I will get the courage and encouragement to continue this.
So here goes..

bismillah