Today is DAY 30!

so I made it to day 30 alhamdulillah. I've been watching what I eat more than just sugar now and according to the scale this morning I've lost 13 lbs since the start. It will be a long time until I'm back down to the weight I should/want to be but this is a nice first step. I'm going to continue going sugar-free since I still feel the need in me to use sugar as a solution. It's only been a month so I'm going to take my time before I allow myself sugar again. I think I should be steady at the gym before that happens.

anyway.. yaay for me, alhamdulillah.

Day 29

So tomorrow is day 30.. my bro asked me "what's after that?" and i said "umm day 31?"
I'm going to keep it up cuz I feel like the tendency to just go nuts with sugar is still in me. I use it for coping and for 'energy' and comfort.. So I'm going to keep on with this a while longer.. see if I can break the emotional dependancy.

Day 22

so i got some sugar-free snacks that i ordered a while back.. they came in the mail. I was feeling stressed today and i found myself grabbing them for comfort. not a good thing. i gotta find some other way to destress.

Day 18

I thought I was on day 19.. ah well. I lost a teeny bit of weight. Nothing noticable but alhamdulillah it's something. Hopefully it'll keep coming off. I need to make sure I keep trying to get to the gym.

Day 14

Half way through the month. Alhamdulillah.

I've had to turn to sugarfree sweets a couple times.. actually i didnt HAVE to but i ordered them in advance when i started and they just got here and now im working and stressing and i've had some sugarfree yummies. i guess eventually i'll have to weed all the artifical sugar out of my life since i KNOW its killin my poor kidneys.

I'm discouraged about the whole weight thing. I feel like it takes my body FOREVER to start losing weight :( Usually I get discouraged before I get there.. or drastic.


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Day Eight

Alhamdulillah I made it through the week. Last night I felt like eating something sweet but I think it was just cuz I was bored and wanted a pick-me-up. I've also been trying to avoid carbs cuz the doctor suggested I do. But my sis just brought back fresh buns from the bakery. I don't know how I can avoid them. uff. I love buns.

Day Three

going slowly again.. i had a dream last night that i ate a peice of cake just because it was infront of me. i told myself i wouldnt and then unconsiously i started eating it. and i got mad because it was gross cake. haha.. this is what i dream of.

i actually made it to the gym on saturday. im going to try to make it again.

i didnt have tea yesterday and i think today i'm going to pay for it.